I didnt go to work today..well, you might be asking who works on Sunday? i'm working in Alor Star, Kedah..and my office pratice Sunday-Thursday as working days..so yeah..and i was not feeling well..it's been 3 days of headache and swollen eyes, running nose and pain in the throat..and tummy..i dont know why but i've been having tummy-ache..like uncontrollable 'flush'..hmm...i just cannot pull myself together to drive back to Alor Star for work..bos called, and i did not answer him..well, not that i'm running away from him..but i know he'll be asking me bout work and office which is not in my reach at the moment..and plus i feel like my head is at my feet and my feet is in my head..i just can't get up..my dad ask me to go to clinic..as usual, me..avoid seeing doctor..i refuse to go there..so i stayed at home..now feeling a bit better..hopefully i can go back to work tomorrow.. bos called dad..and ask bout me..thanks bos for your concern..i know i should at least text you that i'm not coming to office, but i just can't get up..or text anything..i know bos needed me because i'm his only hope there in the office..i hope this headache at least would go away by tomorrow morning..so i can drive..dun mind the flu or the cough..but the headache is a must to go...
and some more, i was feeling down..i think i'm feeling sick because of my dilemma also..but i dun wanna give a damn thought bout it right now..as much as i want to avoid thinking of it, the more it gets into me..and i hate it when it does.. so what i'm gonna do right now is to keep myself busy..and get my self-esteem at the top of everything..i'm not going to surrender and beg..it's just cheap for me..it's not my commitment anymore when there's no mutual communication..and now i can see how much my life story began to imitate the 'Nur Kasih's drama..it's not that i'm being skeptical or anything, it's just that i find myself similar to Nur Aminah in the story..
God Help Me~
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