du'a..

Dear Allah,

only you know what is best for me..for i don't know what's hidden before my eyes to see..i could not seek human appraisals for i vow more of your love..please do not let human take advantage of my weakness and never let them see my turbulence..for i know no happiness will they give me only sympathy but no sense of feeling..i hurt more to know what they might be doing to me..please Oh Allah..let me see the right path..let me have the courage to walk alone and make myself happy..let me seek only your love..let no human make fun of me.. i cry and cry Oh Allah..but to no answers i get..i could not win this war..take away my heart from them for they hurt me to their liking..i could not hate them..i could do nothing..but i pray they stay happy and have your blessing..Oh Allah..why oh why i could not be like them..but deep in me, i know i am special to your eyes.. you are teaching me to be stronger..you are teaching me to be good and building my esteem..Oh Allah..i shall hurdle this for you..and make me a better person in your eyes..bless me Allah..bless me..

-nur-