yesterday was a full day of sensation..there was mix of emotions...happy, excited, thrill, sad, disappointment, tired, anxious and worried, and self-redemption moment..one time is soo happy, next thing i know i was crying so bad in bed..hmmm..
well, in the morning, i went to shangrila rasa sayang hotel in batu feringgi with my dad, visiting my former boss who is here in penang for a week of resting..at the same time, meeting with one of my former colleague on our packaging project there..it was for a fitness gym in Alor Setar and we are doing fitness drinking water..they are holding an event this coming 25th but when we talk to our manufacturer, the packaging cannot be ready by that date..so we still be having our initial packaging design idea, coz it will be use as marketing branding tool for them but for that event only, i has suggest something more practical and time wise solution which was agreed by all of them who was there..so instead of one project, i got two..ahaks! i must say i was pretty happy of my negotiation skill~ teeheeeee...from my experience dealing with people, i need to firm my standing as a designer and a business-lady..i need them to pay me.. usually this is what happen when you are in service business..people tend to take your service first and pay later..and that 'later' can be anytime they feel liking to pay..and this is not to happen again..so i told them i'll be sending them my quotation and some forms and contract for them to fill.. in this way, i can be assure with their words..
after 2 hours of meeting, we leave the place and head home..after changing my attire, i went straight downstairs to have my lunch and watch tele..i saw my hero (aamir khan) on the screen! and definitely i stayed to watch..it was called taare zameen par...i only watch halfway but i can understand what the storyline is...and as usual, his movie never never never dissapoint me..i cry, touch, move by emotions, and it was a good feeling, so far... i told myself, i will watch the whole movie, either on youtube or get the dvd..
then, after done with that..i rush back upstairs to my room..and i got text messages on my phone..it was from a friend of mine..the one who ruined my day (if you followed me on my previous post, u will know)..and thanks to her, i was hurt again..then i start to remember the real her..so i said to myself, she is a scumbag..ditch her!.. so because of frustration, i wrote my previous post (i have to let loose my anger somehow)..and then i took my medicine and was sleepy..i went to sleep and her story was over..
but then i woke up to a strange feeling..coz i have this weird dream..and my feeling, i just cannot tell..it was fill with worries and excited at the same time..i dream of the one i want to see for such a long time..the person was holding my hand and was asking me to be strong and patient with whatever that comes in my way...the hand grip was so strong..that i can feel it touching my skin for real..! the eyes was showing affections that i had long dream to see...the minute i realize, tears was coming down my cheek..my heart is beating faster.. i know then, i was missing the person in my dream..it has been 4 times in this 2 weeks..i dunno why..i just got up and pray for this person safety..Ya Allah, protect my dear one..i may be fooled by satan for my feeling but this is rare to see..give your love and bless to my dear friend of mine for this person is in your search journey..
becoz of sudden wake up, i cannot go back to sleep..so i went in front of my lappy and was browsing the net for inspirations..but i cannot stop thinking about my dream..when i keep thinking of the person, my eyes get wet..then i realize, the text message i receive today..i remember the last time i was hurt by her, this person is the one who advised me to stay away from her..and today, without presence, the advice is still heard..in my dreams!! i say my istighfar and then say my syukur..i was smiling again then..it does sound weird and strange and it's like in movie or drama normally..but it's true! i dunno why..somehow i feel like this person always be there for me when i need somebody..then, the memory lane start floating in my head...dang i miss this person!
hmm...so to let my mind and my eyes clear, i need to do something..then i remember taare zameen par!! off to search on youtube for the movie to watch..next thing i know the clock is 2.30am when the movie finish..so, i say my prayer again and nite2...hmm..wat a day..wat a memory lane..syukur alhamdulillah ya Allah..
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